to sleep, that is! I can't stop yawning! I drank a diet soda for lunch, so I've got caffeine in me. I'm drinking lots of water. Maybe my lunch was just too heavy. Or maybe the lupron is tiring me out this time. I do have a headache, have a few hot flashes, and now the fatigue. All side effects if I recall correctly.
I can't even go home and take a nap as Hubby's niece's birthday dinner is tonight at 5:30. Gotta beat the rush (only people who rush to eat at that time are the early bird seniors who go to bed at 7:30).
Speaking of birthdays, today is also my nephew's 9th birthday! I can't believe he is that old. I remember going to the hospital the day after he was born and holding him. He was just too cute. My younger sister struggled with deciding whether to put him up for adoption or not. She was going through the Catholic system where she lived and the case worker was "out" the weekend she had him, so it was a matter of either her keeping him for the weekend or him going into foster care until Monday. She opted to keep him for the weekend and wait for the caseworker, and by then the bond was formed. It's been a tough struggle for her, but she's making it and her little guy is a blessing (as well as a little devil! lol).
Showing posts with label Lupron. Show all posts
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Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Just shoot me now
Or cut off my head. And my tummy. Okay, I'm really not liking the BCPs and the Depot-Lupron. I've had an upset stomach for over a week now, it feels like I'm going to be sick, although I'm resisting the impulse to make myself sick so I'll feel better. And that damned shot yesterday is giving me a headache from hell! I went this morning and bought some Extra Strength Excedrins. I've heard they really help.
I told my boss this morning that we changed up my protocol just a bit and that if I seem out of it, that is why. I told him of the headaches and the upset stomach. He is very understanding as he has a daughter that had a very tough time conceiving. She has had (TRIGS - means upcoming sensitive material for those having a bad day) multiple miscarriages. They finally ended up adopting a Chinese girl toddler, and right before they made the trip to pick her up, found out they were pregnant. That one stuck and they have a cute little girl as well as the girl they adopted. But anyway, all this is just to say that my boss is understanding of what I'm going through, and is cutting me a bit of slack.
Too bad I've missed the prom season. I would have been willing to get drunk and go if I thought it would have gotten me pregnant. Ugh.
I told my boss this morning that we changed up my protocol just a bit and that if I seem out of it, that is why. I told him of the headaches and the upset stomach. He is very understanding as he has a daughter that had a very tough time conceiving. She has had (TRIGS - means upcoming sensitive material for those having a bad day) multiple miscarriages. They finally ended up adopting a Chinese girl toddler, and right before they made the trip to pick her up, found out they were pregnant. That one stuck and they have a cute little girl as well as the girl they adopted. But anyway, all this is just to say that my boss is understanding of what I'm going through, and is cutting me a bit of slack.
Too bad I've missed the prom season. I would have been willing to get drunk and go if I thought it would have gotten me pregnant. Ugh.
Monday, June 23, 2008
We're back
You know how they say what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas? Well, that's not true of Cripple Creek.
Hubby took 2nd place with his Salsa on Saturday. His brother took 3rd place on Sunday. Neither one placed in the green or red chili. They did actually give out nice prizes along with the cash and ribbons marking the occasion.
Hubby made a killing on the slots. By Saturday night, he had given me $1,000 for safe keeping/spend on what I want/mortgage payment. Woohoo! But then on Sunday, we spent $250 of it on a wood statue that had been carved by Thomas Barlow, culinary artist. I know, a culinary artist carving wood? Well, he normally does do ice sculptures, but he did agree to come to Cripple Creek for the wood carving competition. The statue he carved was a six foot tall marine, complete with sword, rifle, and an eagle by his side. No one else had bid on it. I couldn't believe it! We bought it because Hubby's cousin is currently serving over in Afghanistan, his dad was in the service during Viet Nam, and his grandpa was in World War II. We're going to place it in our back yard after we seal it to protect it from the elements.
On the way back today, we stopped at the baby doc's so I could get my Depot-Lupron shot. The nurse took me back, gave me the shot, we talked for a few minutes, then I left. On the way out I stopped to use the restroom as we were going to go do some shopping. We were about a mile or so away from their office when I get a phone call from the nurse, asking me if I could come back as she forgot to test to see if I were pregnant! Can you believe that crap? Ummm hello? Kinda late now, don't ya think? So I go back, barely squeeze out maybe 1/8 teaspoon of pee, then she tests it. Negative, which I didn't have any doubt it would be. But I'm thinking if it were positive, she had just sentenced my baby to birth defects (you can't give Depot-Lupron to pregnant women as it can cause severe birth defects). Stuff would have hit the fan.
It was a good weekend. Unfortunately I do have to go back to work tomorrow. Hubby said I should take the week off so we can go back up to the mountains where it is cool. It's supposed to be around 100 degrees here all week. Yuck.
Hubby took 2nd place with his Salsa on Saturday. His brother took 3rd place on Sunday. Neither one placed in the green or red chili. They did actually give out nice prizes along with the cash and ribbons marking the occasion.
Hubby made a killing on the slots. By Saturday night, he had given me $1,000 for safe keeping/spend on what I want/mortgage payment. Woohoo! But then on Sunday, we spent $250 of it on a wood statue that had been carved by Thomas Barlow, culinary artist. I know, a culinary artist carving wood? Well, he normally does do ice sculptures, but he did agree to come to Cripple Creek for the wood carving competition. The statue he carved was a six foot tall marine, complete with sword, rifle, and an eagle by his side. No one else had bid on it. I couldn't believe it! We bought it because Hubby's cousin is currently serving over in Afghanistan, his dad was in the service during Viet Nam, and his grandpa was in World War II. We're going to place it in our back yard after we seal it to protect it from the elements.
On the way back today, we stopped at the baby doc's so I could get my Depot-Lupron shot. The nurse took me back, gave me the shot, we talked for a few minutes, then I left. On the way out I stopped to use the restroom as we were going to go do some shopping. We were about a mile or so away from their office when I get a phone call from the nurse, asking me if I could come back as she forgot to test to see if I were pregnant! Can you believe that crap? Ummm hello? Kinda late now, don't ya think? So I go back, barely squeeze out maybe 1/8 teaspoon of pee, then she tests it. Negative, which I didn't have any doubt it would be. But I'm thinking if it were positive, she had just sentenced my baby to birth defects (you can't give Depot-Lupron to pregnant women as it can cause severe birth defects). Stuff would have hit the fan.
It was a good weekend. Unfortunately I do have to go back to work tomorrow. Hubby said I should take the week off so we can go back up to the mountains where it is cool. It's supposed to be around 100 degrees here all week. Yuck.
Monday, June 16, 2008
We're underway
Yesterday I started the BCPs for this new cycle. Today I've felt cruddy pretty much all day. Headache, tummy upset, loose bowels (sorry for the TMI). I don't know if it's due to the BCPs or if I caught a bug.
I got a call from Battle Axe today that even though she tried her best, she couldn't get the insurance company to authorize the Depot-Lupron. I don't have the right diagnosis for it. In order for me to get it, I have to pay cash.
I called around to three different pharmacies. IVPCare wanted $666.39. Freedom Fertility wanted $683.48. Aetna Specialy Pharmacy wanted $601.46. This is for just one shot. Not a two week supply. ONE shot. So I went with Aetna, since they were cheaper and it's who I get all my drugs from. I will get my box of goodies on Wednesday.
I actually have to go in and have them give me that shot on Monday. Not necessarily looking forward to that.
Assuming this cycle works, I cannot have the ET any sooner than 30 days after the Depot-Lupron shot, otherwise it can cause birth defects. Lovely.
I got a call from Battle Axe today that even though she tried her best, she couldn't get the insurance company to authorize the Depot-Lupron. I don't have the right diagnosis for it. In order for me to get it, I have to pay cash.
I called around to three different pharmacies. IVPCare wanted $666.39. Freedom Fertility wanted $683.48. Aetna Specialy Pharmacy wanted $601.46. This is for just one shot. Not a two week supply. ONE shot. So I went with Aetna, since they were cheaper and it's who I get all my drugs from. I will get my box of goodies on Wednesday.
I actually have to go in and have them give me that shot on Monday. Not necessarily looking forward to that.
Assuming this cycle works, I cannot have the ET any sooner than 30 days after the Depot-Lupron shot, otherwise it can cause birth defects. Lovely.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Good, Bad or Ugly?
As of this moment, I really don't know what to think. Let me explain. TMI ahead and long.
Getting ready this morning, I've felt a bit crampy. On the occasions when I've had to use the restroom, upon wiping, I'm getting a blush color on the TP. The last time I wiped before leaving for the RE, I had a bit of brownish particles on the TP. So I'm thinking I'm going to get AF very soon.
I go to the REs. I use restroom right before I go in, nothing on TP. I have the b/w and u/s. I have a follie at about 13/14, another a bit smaller, the rest I think Dr. Slick said were under 10. But no dominant follicle.
When we were talking, he first said he was going to put me on Depro-Lupron that will suppress me about a month. Then we'll start the stims and regular lupron in a couple of weeks. At first I thought he said Depro-Provera and I asked him wasn't that a birth control shot? He said, no no, Depro-Lurpon. Oh okay. (That freaked me out a bit.)
He leaves, Battle Axe comes in and says they are going to start me on BCP, do lupron IM maybe twice a day, and keep the follistim at 375 and repronex at 2 vials, all IM. I asked well I thought the doc said we'd do Depro-Lupron. She said no, we're doing BCPs instead. (Isn't that what caused me to be over suppressed the first time????)
We'll mix the evening lupron shot with the repronex and give it in my butt. We're not sure how we're going to do the morning lupron shot, since those needles are too tiny to go IM. I was trying to think how we could do it and she got after me! She said let them worry about the strategizing and just do what I'm told. What nerve! Kinda ticked me off but I guess they are the professionals and I'm just the woman who is trusting them to get me k/u. Just get me drunk already and send me to the prom!
When I was there, a lady had brought her baby in to show off. Which is cool, but darn it, it hurt. Then Dr. Slick was in his scrubs. They are doing transfers today. I was thinking I should have been having my retrieval today. As we were leaving, we took the stairs rather than the elevator. That's where they have all the pictures of the babies that have been born due to their work. It was like another nail in the ol' heart.
I know I have not been through as much as others have. I know I haven't had the surgeries that many of you have had. I know that in the grand scheme of things, I'm just barely out of the starting gate. But damn it, knowing these things doesn't make it any easier on me. I've put up a very good front, trying not to let this get to me. But it is. If I think too much about it, it makes me cry. I hate crying. If I don't think about it, I'm either in denial or suppressing my emotions and I know that isn't good for me.
I sometimes wonder if I'm not supposed to bear children, why the heck wasn't I made a freakin' man then? I have a uterus, it's supposed to be used!
I really don't know what's going to happen in the next few days. I guess it all just depends on whether AF comes right away or if she stays away. Knowing that my largest follie is only 13/14, I doubt that BDing this weekend is going to help, since it seems to be the same size as it was last Friday when I was cancelled.
INFERTILITY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Getting ready this morning, I've felt a bit crampy. On the occasions when I've had to use the restroom, upon wiping, I'm getting a blush color on the TP. The last time I wiped before leaving for the RE, I had a bit of brownish particles on the TP. So I'm thinking I'm going to get AF very soon.
I go to the REs. I use restroom right before I go in, nothing on TP. I have the b/w and u/s. I have a follie at about 13/14, another a bit smaller, the rest I think Dr. Slick said were under 10. But no dominant follicle.
When we were talking, he first said he was going to put me on Depro-Lupron that will suppress me about a month. Then we'll start the stims and regular lupron in a couple of weeks. At first I thought he said Depro-Provera and I asked him wasn't that a birth control shot? He said, no no, Depro-Lurpon. Oh okay. (That freaked me out a bit.)
He leaves, Battle Axe comes in and says they are going to start me on BCP, do lupron IM maybe twice a day, and keep the follistim at 375 and repronex at 2 vials, all IM. I asked well I thought the doc said we'd do Depro-Lupron. She said no, we're doing BCPs instead. (Isn't that what caused me to be over suppressed the first time????)
We'll mix the evening lupron shot with the repronex and give it in my butt. We're not sure how we're going to do the morning lupron shot, since those needles are too tiny to go IM. I was trying to think how we could do it and she got after me! She said let them worry about the strategizing and just do what I'm told. What nerve! Kinda ticked me off but I guess they are the professionals and I'm just the woman who is trusting them to get me k/u. Just get me drunk already and send me to the prom!
When I was there, a lady had brought her baby in to show off. Which is cool, but darn it, it hurt. Then Dr. Slick was in his scrubs. They are doing transfers today. I was thinking I should have been having my retrieval today. As we were leaving, we took the stairs rather than the elevator. That's where they have all the pictures of the babies that have been born due to their work. It was like another nail in the ol' heart.
I know I have not been through as much as others have. I know I haven't had the surgeries that many of you have had. I know that in the grand scheme of things, I'm just barely out of the starting gate. But damn it, knowing these things doesn't make it any easier on me. I've put up a very good front, trying not to let this get to me. But it is. If I think too much about it, it makes me cry. I hate crying. If I don't think about it, I'm either in denial or suppressing my emotions and I know that isn't good for me.
I sometimes wonder if I'm not supposed to bear children, why the heck wasn't I made a freakin' man then? I have a uterus, it's supposed to be used!
I really don't know what's going to happen in the next few days. I guess it all just depends on whether AF comes right away or if she stays away. Knowing that my largest follie is only 13/14, I doubt that BDing this weekend is going to help, since it seems to be the same size as it was last Friday when I was cancelled.
INFERTILITY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Snowmass: Tears & Cheers
What a way to travel! The flight to Denver was a bit bumpy, but very short, and what a smooth landing! The ride to Aspen on a twin propeller plane was adventurous, a little bumpy when flying through a cloud, but not bad at all. My flight out of Colorado Springs left at 9:50 am and I was in Aspen at 12:02 pm.
I had just grabbed a breakfast burrito that my SIL had made that morning and was munching on it when my cell phone rang. It was Battle Axe from the REs. She asked me where I was and I told her I was in Snowmass already. She said what a way to travel (as my appointment had been at 7:30 Friday morning). So I'm all cheerful and ask how my numbers look. She said my estrogen numbers looked really good, they matched my ultrasound perfectly. I'm like great! then she said that my progesterone was too high. I've not had any experience with that before, so I asked her what that meant. She said that the lupron wasn't working, it let one of my follicles become dominant and it was holding back the other follicles. Therefore I was cancelled.
At this, I started to cry right away. She kept trying to tell me though that it was good news the way I was responding, it was just that they were going to have to change up my suppressant, by either having me take multiple doses of the lupron each day or use a different medication. I wanted to throw the phone, but I try to discipline myself so that I don't destroy my things when I'm angry or upset. I told her that I guessed I'd just call her when I start my next period. She said yes. I squeezed out thanks and good bye and hung up.
Hubby was there beside me, hugging me, asking what happened. I told him and he said it would be all right. We have to be patient. We'll find the right combination of medications. I guess I have to believe him, right?
After having a good little cry, explaining to my BIL what all of this meant, and then finishing my breakfast burrito, I finally decided that I was in God's beautiful country, and I was going to enjoy myself!
Friday's contest didn't result in our winning any prizes in the Chili Verde, Red Chili or Salsa categories. On Saturday though, Hubby won 3rd place in Chili Verde! Originally he had been announced as the 2nd place winner, but there was a "technical error" on the judges part (they don't know how to count up to 18), and he was bumped down to third place. But that's okay, he was still very happy to get a trophy that said "Snowmass Chili Festival, 3rd Place Chili Verde." It seems like when he has won or placed in past competitions, either they just give money (which is nice) and no actual prize (like a plate or plaque), or the prizes they hand out do not indicate what it was that he won.
It snowed last night and on the way home today over Vail and Loveland passes, although not enough today to slow down our driving. When we picked up our doggies, they were so happy to see us! We were glad to see them too as we missed them.
It's good to be home. Tomorrow I get to go clear my calendar at work of all my RE appointments for the month. I really hate doing that. Grrrr.
I had just grabbed a breakfast burrito that my SIL had made that morning and was munching on it when my cell phone rang. It was Battle Axe from the REs. She asked me where I was and I told her I was in Snowmass already. She said what a way to travel (as my appointment had been at 7:30 Friday morning). So I'm all cheerful and ask how my numbers look. She said my estrogen numbers looked really good, they matched my ultrasound perfectly. I'm like great! then she said that my progesterone was too high. I've not had any experience with that before, so I asked her what that meant. She said that the lupron wasn't working, it let one of my follicles become dominant and it was holding back the other follicles. Therefore I was cancelled.
At this, I started to cry right away. She kept trying to tell me though that it was good news the way I was responding, it was just that they were going to have to change up my suppressant, by either having me take multiple doses of the lupron each day or use a different medication. I wanted to throw the phone, but I try to discipline myself so that I don't destroy my things when I'm angry or upset. I told her that I guessed I'd just call her when I start my next period. She said yes. I squeezed out thanks and good bye and hung up.
Hubby was there beside me, hugging me, asking what happened. I told him and he said it would be all right. We have to be patient. We'll find the right combination of medications. I guess I have to believe him, right?
After having a good little cry, explaining to my BIL what all of this meant, and then finishing my breakfast burrito, I finally decided that I was in God's beautiful country, and I was going to enjoy myself!
Friday's contest didn't result in our winning any prizes in the Chili Verde, Red Chili or Salsa categories. On Saturday though, Hubby won 3rd place in Chili Verde! Originally he had been announced as the 2nd place winner, but there was a "technical error" on the judges part (they don't know how to count up to 18), and he was bumped down to third place. But that's okay, he was still very happy to get a trophy that said "Snowmass Chili Festival, 3rd Place Chili Verde." It seems like when he has won or placed in past competitions, either they just give money (which is nice) and no actual prize (like a plate or plaque), or the prizes they hand out do not indicate what it was that he won.
It snowed last night and on the way home today over Vail and Loveland passes, although not enough today to slow down our driving. When we picked up our doggies, they were so happy to see us! We were glad to see them too as we missed them.
It's good to be home. Tomorrow I get to go clear my calendar at work of all my RE appointments for the month. I really hate doing that. Grrrr.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Lupron came in
I don't have much to report. My lupron came in yesterday. I took it over to my co-worker in the next office and asked if she wanted a shot! She wasn't too keen on that.
Hubby's grandpa's funeral was yesterday. He was in World War II and he had a military (navy) honor burial. They did a three round volley with the guns, which made all of us jump. I felt so bad for Hubby's cousin. Grandpa was her only grandpa, and she was pretty devastated. After the service was over, she stood at his casket just sobbing, which about made me cry. It's hard to say goodbye and let go.
Our next project is working on our back yard. Hubby has contracted a landscaper to come in and level it, put in a new sprinkler system on one side, fix the system on the other side, lay sod, and remove a few small trees along the fence as well as the remaining clothes line poll. It will be so nice to have grass back there. Hubby is paying for this project. I paid for our windows. Our doggies will really enjoy the grass! And since we have a new lawn mower, it makes it so much easier to cut the grass as it is self-propelled.
Oh, I start my acupuncture tomorrow! I about forgot about that.
Most of you who read my blog also read Nancy's blog, but if not, go over and give her some hugs as she got a BFN off this FET.
I've seen where many infertiles or folks who have problems with getting pregnant say that fertile people suck. I understand where they are coming from but I don't agree. I'm finding where generalizing or stereotyping is really getting to me. So yeah, maybe some suck, but I'm sure there are a few infertile people out there who suck too. But not because of their ability or lack thereof to have babies. It's because they are just not nice.
Got to go. Lunch time!
Hubby's grandpa's funeral was yesterday. He was in World War II and he had a military (navy) honor burial. They did a three round volley with the guns, which made all of us jump. I felt so bad for Hubby's cousin. Grandpa was her only grandpa, and she was pretty devastated. After the service was over, she stood at his casket just sobbing, which about made me cry. It's hard to say goodbye and let go.
Our next project is working on our back yard. Hubby has contracted a landscaper to come in and level it, put in a new sprinkler system on one side, fix the system on the other side, lay sod, and remove a few small trees along the fence as well as the remaining clothes line poll. It will be so nice to have grass back there. Hubby is paying for this project. I paid for our windows. Our doggies will really enjoy the grass! And since we have a new lawn mower, it makes it so much easier to cut the grass as it is self-propelled.
Oh, I start my acupuncture tomorrow! I about forgot about that.
Most of you who read my blog also read Nancy's blog, but if not, go over and give her some hugs as she got a BFN off this FET.
I've seen where many infertiles or folks who have problems with getting pregnant say that fertile people suck. I understand where they are coming from but I don't agree. I'm finding where generalizing or stereotyping is really getting to me. So yeah, maybe some suck, but I'm sure there are a few infertile people out there who suck too. But not because of their ability or lack thereof to have babies. It's because they are just not nice.
Got to go. Lunch time!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Celebration of 4/20
Some of you may get this right away. Others of you may not. But today, Hubby celebrated 4/20. When he first asked me if I knew what today was, I told him yes. When he asked for details, I told him, "It's the Day of the Weed." lol
Hubby told me that if I were going to be a mafioso's wife, I had to know what the correct term was. Besides it being "4/20" aka "4:20," I wasn't sure what it was supposed to be called. I thought my terminology was pretty good. He's such a goof. The only reason I knew what it was was due to the fact that at Spen.cer's I saw a bumper sticker that said, "4:19, got a minute?" I had to ask my friend what that meant!
Today we hung out with Hubby's family at the reservoir. It was a nice day, warm and windy. I could have done without the wind, although nice breezes are always welcome. I got a little sun, but was wearing my SPF 30. Afterward, we went to his cousin's house, as I found out on the drive there, yesterday we were invited to dinner tonight. He said he told me, I said he was full of it. They made homemade sopapillas with green chili. One was stuffed with potatoes, bacon, chile and cheese, the other stuffed with beans and cheese. Not too bad.
I had made green chili for lunch today. Boy was it hot! We used Big Jim anaheim chiles. I made mine it the poor man's way with hamburger, rather than pork. But it was still yummy! After two meals with green chili, it's time for the Tums!
Oh, and lupron on the go is no big thing. I gave my shot last night and tonight away from home. Although I do recommend using a room where the lighting is good as I could not get a very good view of what I was doing and wasn't sure how far from my tummy the needle was. My brother finally came and turned the light on for me. That helped!
Hubby and I go to the RE's tomorrow morning for our next appointment. If they say that our recent problems (his UTI and my ear infection/cold) aren't an issue, then I'll go ahead with the u/s and b/w to see how my follies and such are doing. Then I'll have the trial transfer (not looking forward to the full bladder part), and then we'll learn how to do the Repronex and Follistim shots. So, if anyone reads this tonight or first thing in the morning, please pray that they'll allow us to move forward with our IVF cycle, and to heal our bodies from their pesky infections and cold. Thank you!
Hubby told me that if I were going to be a mafioso's wife, I had to know what the correct term was. Besides it being "4/20" aka "4:20," I wasn't sure what it was supposed to be called. I thought my terminology was pretty good. He's such a goof. The only reason I knew what it was was due to the fact that at Spen.cer's I saw a bumper sticker that said, "4:19, got a minute?" I had to ask my friend what that meant!
Today we hung out with Hubby's family at the reservoir. It was a nice day, warm and windy. I could have done without the wind, although nice breezes are always welcome. I got a little sun, but was wearing my SPF 30. Afterward, we went to his cousin's house, as I found out on the drive there, yesterday we were invited to dinner tonight. He said he told me, I said he was full of it. They made homemade sopapillas with green chili. One was stuffed with potatoes, bacon, chile and cheese, the other stuffed with beans and cheese. Not too bad.
I had made green chili for lunch today. Boy was it hot! We used Big Jim anaheim chiles. I made mine it the poor man's way with hamburger, rather than pork. But it was still yummy! After two meals with green chili, it's time for the Tums!
Oh, and lupron on the go is no big thing. I gave my shot last night and tonight away from home. Although I do recommend using a room where the lighting is good as I could not get a very good view of what I was doing and wasn't sure how far from my tummy the needle was. My brother finally came and turned the light on for me. That helped!
Hubby and I go to the RE's tomorrow morning for our next appointment. If they say that our recent problems (his UTI and my ear infection/cold) aren't an issue, then I'll go ahead with the u/s and b/w to see how my follies and such are doing. Then I'll have the trial transfer (not looking forward to the full bladder part), and then we'll learn how to do the Repronex and Follistim shots. So, if anyone reads this tonight or first thing in the morning, please pray that they'll allow us to move forward with our IVF cycle, and to heal our bodies from their pesky infections and cold. Thank you!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Perhaps another day
I woke up this morning feeling worse than I did yesterday. Whatever it is that I have has moved to my chest, so I have lots of congestion, as well as taking my sinuses and holding them hostage! My right nasal passage was killing me this morning, I actually took a Sud.afed PE to get rid of the pressure.
Due to this, and the fact that I could possibly be contagious, I bowed out of the ColoBloggers meeting today. I didn't want to take the chance that I would get someone else sick and mess up their cycle or pregnancy. As it is, we just don't know what is going to happen Monday morning when we go in for our appointment. We hope it's still a go, but who knows. I didn't want to jeopardize anyone else's opportunity.
I do look forward to meeting all of the ColoBloggers! Nancy, maybe we'll bump into each other Monday morning. I think I recall you having an appointment that morning. We'll be there at 8.
I'm trying to drink lots of fluids. I've already had a bottle of orange juice, a bottle of water, and two glasses of water. Maybe I'll flush whatever this is out of my system!
We are supposed to go to my mom's tonight for dinner with her, my brother and his wife. We'll get to hear all about the fire as well as my brother and SIL's vacation to Hawaii that they just got back from on Monday. I'm hoping they brought me some of that famous Kona coffee. I may not be able to enjoy it for a while, but I can still smell it! lol So if all goes well, I will finally be doing my lupron shot on the go!
Due to this, and the fact that I could possibly be contagious, I bowed out of the ColoBloggers meeting today. I didn't want to take the chance that I would get someone else sick and mess up their cycle or pregnancy. As it is, we just don't know what is going to happen Monday morning when we go in for our appointment. We hope it's still a go, but who knows. I didn't want to jeopardize anyone else's opportunity.
I do look forward to meeting all of the ColoBloggers! Nancy, maybe we'll bump into each other Monday morning. I think I recall you having an appointment that morning. We'll be there at 8.
I'm trying to drink lots of fluids. I've already had a bottle of orange juice, a bottle of water, and two glasses of water. Maybe I'll flush whatever this is out of my system!
We are supposed to go to my mom's tonight for dinner with her, my brother and his wife. We'll get to hear all about the fire as well as my brother and SIL's vacation to Hawaii that they just got back from on Monday. I'm hoping they brought me some of that famous Kona coffee. I may not be able to enjoy it for a while, but I can still smell it! lol So if all goes well, I will finally be doing my lupron shot on the go!
Friday, April 18, 2008
One week of lupron shots
I just realized tonight when I was looking in my Sharps container that I have now given myself seven lupron shots! They really haven't been too bad. Besides a few headaches, a couple of hot flashes, and maybe a bit of snarkiness yesterday, I really haven't experienced bad side effects. While I did have an extremely bad case of gas pains yesterday (sorry for the TMI) I don't think it was due to the lupron.
Hubby and I are starting to feel better. He never did hear from our IVF nurse today. I guess we'll just talk with her Monday when we go in for our next appointment. I'm thinking if it would have been bad news, they would have called us, at least that's what I hope.
On the good news front, I got confirmation today from my insurance company that they are approving the IVF w/ ICSI. I really wasn't worried about it not being approved, I was more concerned that the doctor's office might not get the pre-approval completed in time. We all know how they operate sometimes - S - L - O - W - L - Y ! Now I can go online and look again at how much they allow for the different procedures so I can get an idea of how much of my $10,000 lifetime maximum ART benefit I'll be using on our first IVF. From what I understand, the blood work and ultrasounds are not applied to the ART benefit. They are just my regular medical benefit. I told Hubby tonight that we should have enough leftover benefit that if we need IVF for child #2, we'll be okay.
Tomorrow I'll be going up to Denver (again), but this time to meet my fellow ColoBloggers. Since I'm a brand new blogger, I'm not sure what we'll discuss, besides our experiences with IVF and infertility.
Okay, I've been on this computer enough today! I'm going to grab Nancy's phone number (the lady I'm carpooling with up to Denver tomorrow), and I'm going to watch Juno with Hubby. He forgot I had watched it at the theater, so I'm going to make him watch it!
Hubby and I are starting to feel better. He never did hear from our IVF nurse today. I guess we'll just talk with her Monday when we go in for our next appointment. I'm thinking if it would have been bad news, they would have called us, at least that's what I hope.
On the good news front, I got confirmation today from my insurance company that they are approving the IVF w/ ICSI. I really wasn't worried about it not being approved, I was more concerned that the doctor's office might not get the pre-approval completed in time. We all know how they operate sometimes - S - L - O - W - L - Y ! Now I can go online and look again at how much they allow for the different procedures so I can get an idea of how much of my $10,000 lifetime maximum ART benefit I'll be using on our first IVF. From what I understand, the blood work and ultrasounds are not applied to the ART benefit. They are just my regular medical benefit. I told Hubby tonight that we should have enough leftover benefit that if we need IVF for child #2, we'll be okay.
Tomorrow I'll be going up to Denver (again), but this time to meet my fellow ColoBloggers. Since I'm a brand new blogger, I'm not sure what we'll discuss, besides our experiences with IVF and infertility.
Okay, I've been on this computer enough today! I'm going to grab Nancy's phone number (the lady I'm carpooling with up to Denver tomorrow), and I'm going to watch Juno with Hubby. He forgot I had watched it at the theater, so I'm going to make him watch it!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Ear infection
This morning I woke up to a painful left ear. At first, I thought I slept on it too long. But I soon realized that wasn't the case. I went to my medical doctor, saw his PA, and she said, "Yep, it's an ear infection. It looks like it could burst soon." So she gave me three different medications to take, As.telin (nasal spray to help sinuses drain due to allergies), cipro something (drops to put in my ear), and amoxyc.illan to take for seven days. She of course told me to tell my RE about it, but she didn't think that it should effect my cycle. I left a message for my IVF nurse, Nurse Betty. So I hope all will be well.
The PA also said that if I get a sudden sharp pain followed by immediate relief that my ear drum most likely burst and that I'd need to come in and see them. So I'm hoping that my ear cooperates and heals!
Tonight, we have church, so I think I'll do my shot there. I don't know why I'm so obsessed about doing my shot away from home. Many people do it every day!
The PA also said that if I get a sudden sharp pain followed by immediate relief that my ear drum most likely burst and that I'd need to come in and see them. So I'm hoping that my ear cooperates and heals!
Tonight, we have church, so I think I'll do my shot there. I don't know why I'm so obsessed about doing my shot away from home. Many people do it every day!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Shot on the go cancelled by fire
Tonight was supposed to be my first Lupron shot done away from home. I usually play Bunco on the third Tuesday of each month. I was pretty psyched to do my shot on the go, to test my ability to handle it under different circumstances. However, it was cancelled because of a fire!
Today has been an extremely windy day here in Southern Colorado. There was a wild fire up by Ft. Carson, and another one in Ordway, which is east of Pueblo about 50 miles. Ordway is where my Mom lives. My brother called me this afternoon to get my mom's cell phone number. When I asked him why, he said that Ordway was being evacuated due to a wild fire that was south of town, burning and moving to the north. The information we had at the time indicated that a structure had burnt just six blocks south of where she lives. My brother headed there, while I remained by the phone.
I made a judgement call to stay home in case hubby and I were needed. I was ready to head there, but since Mom wasn't answering her cell phone, she wasn't at home (as my brother was able to snake his way into town despite most roads being blocked off - nice thing about 4 wheel drive, canals and such don't stop you!), and not at work, we decided just to stay close by our phones. My mom works at a nursing home and we assume that she helped evacuate the residents of the nursing home to nearby towns to facilities there. As of now, 8:15 pm, we still haven't heard from her. I have every confidence that she is well, but if she doesn't pick up a phone soon and call someone to let us know she is okay, well, she's not going to be well for soon! lol
So I gave myself the shot here at home. It went well. I still have to do it in front of the mirror, but I am becoming a pro at it. Right after I did it, my brother in law and his son came by to drop off some lasagna my mother in law made. I showed him my needles that I'm using and will be using, and I think he was actually impressed! He normally doesn't like it when we talk about what we're doing, but I think he is actually happy for us, nonetheless.
As for how I'm feeling today, haven't been tired, but have had a headache that didn't respond to Ty.lenol, and Ad.vil seemed to take the edge off of it. I know I shouldn't be taking ibuprofen, but because of what was going on, I said to heck with it. But I will try to stay away from it, especially once I start the stimulants.
Oh, and since today is tax day, we did get our state taxes mailed off. I tried to electronically file them with Tur.bo Tax, but because I originally messed up hubby's SSN, it kept rejecting it, so we had to mail it. I'm going to see if Tur.bo Tax will refund the $17.95 they charged me to electronically file it.
Please keep my mom in your prayers and thoughts that she is well. I'm sure she is, but it never hurts to ask for God's protection. Thank you!
Today has been an extremely windy day here in Southern Colorado. There was a wild fire up by Ft. Carson, and another one in Ordway, which is east of Pueblo about 50 miles. Ordway is where my Mom lives. My brother called me this afternoon to get my mom's cell phone number. When I asked him why, he said that Ordway was being evacuated due to a wild fire that was south of town, burning and moving to the north. The information we had at the time indicated that a structure had burnt just six blocks south of where she lives. My brother headed there, while I remained by the phone.
I made a judgement call to stay home in case hubby and I were needed. I was ready to head there, but since Mom wasn't answering her cell phone, she wasn't at home (as my brother was able to snake his way into town despite most roads being blocked off - nice thing about 4 wheel drive, canals and such don't stop you!), and not at work, we decided just to stay close by our phones. My mom works at a nursing home and we assume that she helped evacuate the residents of the nursing home to nearby towns to facilities there. As of now, 8:15 pm, we still haven't heard from her. I have every confidence that she is well, but if she doesn't pick up a phone soon and call someone to let us know she is okay, well, she's not going to be well for soon! lol
So I gave myself the shot here at home. It went well. I still have to do it in front of the mirror, but I am becoming a pro at it. Right after I did it, my brother in law and his son came by to drop off some lasagna my mother in law made. I showed him my needles that I'm using and will be using, and I think he was actually impressed! He normally doesn't like it when we talk about what we're doing, but I think he is actually happy for us, nonetheless.
As for how I'm feeling today, haven't been tired, but have had a headache that didn't respond to Ty.lenol, and Ad.vil seemed to take the edge off of it. I know I shouldn't be taking ibuprofen, but because of what was going on, I said to heck with it. But I will try to stay away from it, especially once I start the stimulants.
Oh, and since today is tax day, we did get our state taxes mailed off. I tried to electronically file them with Tur.bo Tax, but because I originally messed up hubby's SSN, it kept rejecting it, so we had to mail it. I'm going to see if Tur.bo Tax will refund the $17.95 they charged me to electronically file it.
Please keep my mom in your prayers and thoughts that she is well. I'm sure she is, but it never hurts to ask for God's protection. Thank you!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Ouch! This one hurt.
Okay, per my IVF nurse's instructions, I am rotating places on my belly where I'm giving myself the Lupron shots. Tonight, I did above and to the right of my naval. And hubby was watching too. Ouch! This one hurt. I did it quick, but I just don't think that was a good position. I'm going to switch back to just below my naval.
I felt pretty good today. I had a slight headache that responded to Tylenol. I didn't have the yawns like I did yesterday, so I'm assuming that I just didn't get enough sleep Saturday night. I've had a weird taste in my mouth today, but I think that may be left over from the guacamole and onions from yesterday, despite the fact that I brushed my teeth and tongue thoroughly.
Hubby knows that I have started a blog, and I've even offered to let him read it, but he insists this is the place where I can come to and vent if I need without worrying about him reading it. That's very sweet of him. Hopefully I'll keep my vents to a minimum, but apparently he knows me very well. lol
I'm trying to figure out how to add some of the cool features that I've seen on other blogs, such as the ColoBloggers logo. I'm not too proficient in codes and things like that, so I'm hoping someone will take pity on me and show me how to do it. Of course, I should probably ask the couple bloggers that I've seen with the logo on their blogs, but I just haven't done that yet. I will. Soon. Really.
I told another co-worker what we're doing, and that we'll be transferring three embryos (at least that is the plan for now). She asked if we could handle it if all three took. I told her we'd be relying upon God to make sure that we don't have more than we can handle. We have to look at it realistically, knowing that most likely, transferring three will lead to a singleton pregnancy. If we got twins, we'd be fine. If we did get triplets, well, we'd know that God knows we can do it, with His help, of course! But, we'll cross that bridge when and if we get to it.
I felt pretty good today. I had a slight headache that responded to Tylenol. I didn't have the yawns like I did yesterday, so I'm assuming that I just didn't get enough sleep Saturday night. I've had a weird taste in my mouth today, but I think that may be left over from the guacamole and onions from yesterday, despite the fact that I brushed my teeth and tongue thoroughly.
Hubby knows that I have started a blog, and I've even offered to let him read it, but he insists this is the place where I can come to and vent if I need without worrying about him reading it. That's very sweet of him. Hopefully I'll keep my vents to a minimum, but apparently he knows me very well. lol
I'm trying to figure out how to add some of the cool features that I've seen on other blogs, such as the ColoBloggers logo. I'm not too proficient in codes and things like that, so I'm hoping someone will take pity on me and show me how to do it. Of course, I should probably ask the couple bloggers that I've seen with the logo on their blogs, but I just haven't done that yet. I will. Soon. Really.
I told another co-worker what we're doing, and that we'll be transferring three embryos (at least that is the plan for now). She asked if we could handle it if all three took. I told her we'd be relying upon God to make sure that we don't have more than we can handle. We have to look at it realistically, knowing that most likely, transferring three will lead to a singleton pregnancy. If we got twins, we'd be fine. If we did get triplets, well, we'd know that God knows we can do it, with His help, of course! But, we'll cross that bridge when and if we get to it.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Shot #2 - Ha! Not so bad
We spent the day with hubby's family. We grilled hamburgers and hot dogs. Nice way to spend a Sunday afternoon after church.
At church, hubby and I went up to the altar to be prayed over, for the start of this IVF cycle. We could feel the Spirit moving. It was great to have his father (who is a pastor) pray for us. My in-laws have been very supportive. When my hubby said he'd be leaving for a fish trip with his dad and brother, they made sure it was before I start my stimulants, which means they are going this Saturday. It's their annual spring run-off fishing trip, dad and sons.
Tonight's shot wasn't bad. I left the in-laws to run home to do the shot. I got to say, I felt pretty confident in doing it this time. However, remembering how hard I did it yesterday, I thought I'd soften it up just a bit. Okay, even though that needle is sharp, you still have to put some oomph behind it to get it to go in. Yeah, I actually had to push because I did it too easy. Maybe tomorrow I'll get it just right.
I'll have one more day of giving my shot here at home, but on Tuesday, I'm going to have to take it with me as I'll be playing Bunco that night. So we'll see how that goes. My Bunco friends know we're trying to have a child, they just don't know yet that we are doing IVF. I don't mind telling a few of them, but as I'm sure most people in this situation agree, I want to limit all who know in case there is bad news to share.
I yawned a lot today, so I don't know if the fatigue side effect is kicking in, or if my dogs just didn't let me get as much sleep as I wanted. We'll see how I am tomorrow. I just want the head aches to stay away!
At church, hubby and I went up to the altar to be prayed over, for the start of this IVF cycle. We could feel the Spirit moving. It was great to have his father (who is a pastor) pray for us. My in-laws have been very supportive. When my hubby said he'd be leaving for a fish trip with his dad and brother, they made sure it was before I start my stimulants, which means they are going this Saturday. It's their annual spring run-off fishing trip, dad and sons.
Tonight's shot wasn't bad. I left the in-laws to run home to do the shot. I got to say, I felt pretty confident in doing it this time. However, remembering how hard I did it yesterday, I thought I'd soften it up just a bit. Okay, even though that needle is sharp, you still have to put some oomph behind it to get it to go in. Yeah, I actually had to push because I did it too easy. Maybe tomorrow I'll get it just right.
I'll have one more day of giving my shot here at home, but on Tuesday, I'm going to have to take it with me as I'll be playing Bunco that night. So we'll see how that goes. My Bunco friends know we're trying to have a child, they just don't know yet that we are doing IVF. I don't mind telling a few of them, but as I'm sure most people in this situation agree, I want to limit all who know in case there is bad news to share.
I yawned a lot today, so I don't know if the fatigue side effect is kicking in, or if my dogs just didn't let me get as much sleep as I wanted. We'll see how I am tomorrow. I just want the head aches to stay away!
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