The internet, not books (I will never give up my books!). Last month, after my BFN, I read on a board where after a failed IVF cycle, your chances of getting KU go up as your body is still full of hormones. So I had this hope in my heart.
Yesterday it was crushed.
I told Hubby yesterday that I think it would be easier on me mentally if I were to just get a hysterectomy so that I don't have to go through this each and every month, wondering if I'll be "blessed" or get an "oops." If I did have a hysterectomy, there'd be no more wondering. There'd be no more false hope. There'd be no more recovering from the let down.
I don't see us continuing down this path any longer. Unless we win the lottery, it's just not going to happen.
